Coming to Accept My Gifts

I've known for many years I have certain "instincts", gifts if you will. I continue to fight them. I think it's fear. Few people understand me. I'm a very spiritual person but am afraid to venture into a life other than with God. I KNOW a higher power exisits, I KNOW the spirit world exists, but how much of what I feel is right and what of it might be from a darker side. A very small part of what I'm saying happened today.

My brother lost his life to an illness on Wednesday morning. He was only 52. I turned 50 yesterday so my milestone birthday was saddened by the loss of my brother. However, I know he has a more important job to do or he would not have been taken. I happened to be searching for an online class, something positive to nuture myself and ran across your site. The first tiny little thing I read was that the August herb was the Aloe Vera plant. I just happened to buy one last Saturday. I've always wanted one but have never owned one. This pulled at me. I know it's a very small thing but other things have been happening and instead of continuing to be fearful, I want to investigate and try to get past the fear.

In my life I have been visited from the other side. At first I was very frightened. For months it was just a feeling that someone was watching me. I was 21 and going through a very bad time. Then one night at the foot of my bed, a comforting vision of my grandfather, I was NOT asleep. It was a complete revelation that I was being guarded. I believe God allowed me that vision and that's the feeling I had been having. I carry my grandfather's spirit with me every day now. I am familiar with his presence.

During the pregnancy with my daughter I was saddened that she may never know a man like her great-grandfather. It was the holiday season and I was up late thinking about this. I went to bed and as I was drifting the room lit and he again appeared. Again the feeling was of comfort and assurance he was still with me and my unborn daughter.

I am careful who I share my stories with. I was born under the sign of Virgo which for those who understand I am very analytical and would not publicise these revelations had I not looked into them first.

Thank you for this venue and place to "search".

- Gypsy Spirit, USA (September 2003)