A Suicide Experience

this is my experience
im december 1997 a woman that i loved very much died from a failed liver
now this was about 6 months befor we were to marry i was 27 at the time she was 36
now i tried my best to cope with the loss but in the end the pain was to much me
i just was not strong enough
about one month went by taking me lower and lower i could not eat i could not for more then ten minutes at a time
i drank as much as i could all the time
now this is where things get interesting
i decided i had enough , enough taxes enough loss enough crying yeh in that order
so i decided i was getting out of here no matter what
so i started with one liter of anti freeze in shots chased by beer and that led to two more liters over all
so when all was said and done i had consumed about 3 liters of anti freeze with about umpteen cases of beer and whiskey over a weeks time
now one morning i get up i had no money left and no more booze i wanted more so i got in the shower and got out a few minutes later i went to my living room and i had not bothered to dress yet as i was starting to get really hot
i remember thinking to my self ( i hope this is what i really wanted jeuss save me )
now i remember crashing to the floor
and that was the last thing i remember while i was awake
now a day befor this the woman above me had her pipes burst ( wierd )
now the plumber shows up the next day and finds me laying om the floor naked with my balconey door wide open and me laying half in half out the weather was about 35-40 below that january
now i am in a coma so off to the hospital i go by ambulance i dont know how long i was in the coma but nonetheless it does not matter now i am in heaven i meet a man in hebrew clothing standing in front of a podium
he asks me if i am ready there is a door of light all i have to do is walk through thats it , but i hesitate , so i got some time to think i dont know how much but ten thousand years one minute to god theres no differance
so i start to walk up a open path a wall to my left and open space to my right there i meet this woman ( angle ?)
she is unlike any woman i have ever seen in my life the most perfect woman
and i am naked and feel no shame whats so ever not one bit
all this time i am weeping as my harts so broke , i asked her where she was ( my late wife )
she says to me she did not make it , i was not really surprised as the woman that died was a very greedy and angery woman
so this woman starts to walk back with me and on the way i grew tiered and thought a bench would be nice to sit down on and there out of no where was a bench
so we sat and i weeped fopr awhile and then we started walking again and got back to the man and the podium again he asked are you ready ?
i started to think about the people i was leaving behind and i could see my mother weeping i could not answer and since i couls not answer i was sent back falling downward back first
now i dont know if this happened then and there but they tell me i started to cry in my coma and then i threw blood up so high it hit the ceiling and i came out of the coma
now just a few more things and i will end this
i went in to dialis for amonth and then they took out the needles my blood was fine as were my kidneys that is a maricle
no problems with my sight or my mind at all
how does that happen ?
you know how !!!
but i tell you from what i saw from the outside of heaven had i been there at my time i would never had been so happy
and i have never seen stone on the face of this earth so beautiful in my life nor do i ever expect i will
i know i was there i know i was forgiven
i know there is life to be had here and there and that is my testomoney befor god
thanks for your time

- seeing heaven (August 2006)

Hi Ray,

People often have experiences that show them the way and give them the strength they need to continue. Obviously, you have much more to accomplish before being allowed to return home.This gives great proof that when a person commits suicide - it is not necessarily a negative experience for him or her in the afterlife.

- Wendy Kay
Founder