Blossoming Abilities

I have always been very sensitive to the people around me. I could sense emotion, before the door even opened or I was done reading the "masked" letter/email. I thought I was just very sympathetic and/or nuts. Disregarding the wild thoughts that would come to me, was no longer even a consious effort. Well, here I am 31 years old, and learning its much more. This year, for the first time in my life, I met someone with similar qualities. From that moment, I have evolved. I truly do mean that moment. I have always been overly hesitant in making friends. I'm great with people, but I always found the interpersonal stuff so draining. It took my best friend 3 months, of inviting me out before I broke down and accepted. In the first week I knew Adrienne (met @ work)I invited HER out. I have never, ever, initiated friendship. Ever. I of course didn't know then, the mutual importance. It took some time before we were able to match schedules, but I believe it was necessary. Had I come to all these revelations, and insights all at once, I'm not entirely sure I could have handled it.

A month or so into our friendship, I told a family Member, how I was sensing that our friendship was crucial. She didn't happen to work at my new job, this was part of "THE" plan. I felt we were mutually crucial to each others futures, though I had NO idea why. I chose not to share this information with Adrienne, not consiously. I just chopped it up to me not wanting her to think I'm nuts. 2 weeks later she took me to lunch for my b-day, at which time she told me of this feeling that she had been having, that feeling would be the same exact one that I relayed to my Aunt. That has just been the tip, trust me.

I am in flux, floundering, and have one foot in the door of faith in my abilities, and one foot in the door of "I'm just nutty land." There is NO denying the facts that have been presented me. My heart is validating me, while my head is arguing and still scrambling for "logical" reasons for these instances. I can't seem to shake that! I am trying to be respectful and unabusive of this gift. However, half of me is so obsessed with trying to debunk it, I get lost. I know this talent exists. I'm just having a hard time beleiving it exists within me. I'm not frightened. I have just wished for it so long, that I don't trust it. How can I, it would only eliminate #3 on my "Biggest Fear's in Life" list. The fear of being average, ordinary, and all together forgetable.

Now, I'm a speaker for the emotions of others. An aquaintance says "Hey Monica, how have you been doing". My ears hear that, while my head hears what ever is toiling in their thoughts as they great me. For Ex: my I was trying to mediate for my Aunt and her spouse, she made a statement. Behind the statement, I heard all the details she wasn't repeating. That seems to be how it works. I can sense the mood, but the details only seem to come when they are physically speaking to me. Totally unrelated topics though. One aquaintance began talking to me about my job. From that I got all her relationship info. regarding Her/boyfriend, Her/boyfriends mother and her/boyfriend/boyfriends mom/her kids! Is this normal? or is it just a case of everyone is different. I have tried research, but don't seem to find anything following this format. Any input, reading, information would be greatly appreciated. Soooo new at this.

- half and half, USA (July 2004)

Hi half and half,

What a delight that you have discovered that you have psychic abilities and are accepting them! It is perfectly normal for people to be "prodded" into developing their abilities in different ways and this could be your way. The only way you will know is if you actively start developing them. Normally, if it was just a way to "get you going" those abilities will stop or slow down. If that is truly going to be how your abilities work, then you will simply gain more knowledge.

It is normal for someone who is clairsentient (feels other people's emotions) to hear or know what others are thinking or feeling or to get more details. You do seem to be very clairsentient - and as people push thoughts at you, you pick them up. It can become confusing and uncomfortable because what you see is not what you get...you see someone smiling and laughing and you feel their hurt or anger - confusing to say the least.

I suggest that you consider either joining a meditation group to develop your abilities or you may even want to take our 7 Week Beginner's Psychic Development Course which will give you a solid foundation for further development which can be found at www.oralin.com/coursepsychicdevelopment.phtml

- Wendy Kay
Founder